You can feel how they are dulling you, dulling your perception, you're every day experience. Between all of the endocrin blockers in the food, air, everything, and the constant feedback look of reinforced gaslighting, you are constantly being distracted from your everyday life, on purpose. All of the chemicals they are spraying into the air and putting into the water are calcifying (spell) your pineal gland, which further dulls your senses. Why? Because what is happening around you is to be told and shown to you and only in the past or in the present, you are not allowed to be there while it happends. THat is for the special boys and girls.
Hey, I'm here with ya, not the way to live,
try to be patient with your loved ones and people you know as being so depleted themselves, any contact with another person, essentially is each person waiting for the other to stimulate them in some sort of way to make them feel better, aspeople are at their limit. I'm there too. Somethings gonna snap, at the end of the day, people don't want to be miserable their whole lives they don't give a shit how or what needs to happen. Myself inlcluded.
ANyways, be well
Pick your poison, they have already loaded you up with more than you would probably like anyways.
Cheers